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Vegan Babe Life & Being An Introvert

Vegan Babe Life & Being An Introvert

The older I have got the more I’ve learnt about myself and the more I’ve become myself. I always considered myself outgoing, but I’m really the biggest introvert.

For most of my life I used alcohol to deal with social situations and relationships, now I’ve been sober for years that’s started to become clear. Being intimate with anyone always felt really hard, I felt like I just didn’t know how to act and how to maintain relationships.

Alcohol made me outgoing and seem happy, at times I would still be the sad girl though. I wouldn’t care where the drinks were coming from, I just didn’t care period. I wanted so badly to fit in and not be this broken girl who was depressed and had PTSD.

I didn’t get to have a childhood and learn about adult things from school, I knew too much too young. This made me so confused about relationships and what children should/should not be doing. When I got older I realised a lot of things weren’t right or ok, I understood it was abuse, I just couldn’t deal with it.

My brain has protected me from things because I was too young but it has chosen to empty its secrets this year and I’m still not sure how I feel or how to deal but here I am.

I know I don’t want to be in a relationship, they’ve broken me and make me so unstable, I can’t and don’t want to. I live alone and spend most days in my own company, and that is just fine by me. Some people wonder if I get lonely and pine for social interaction or a relationship, I honestly don’t.

a shy, reticent person.

Introvert

Now I’ve accepted that’s who I have always been and that the alcohol was just a mask for all of that I feel a kind of relief. I am content in that regard.

Introverts are more common than you think and not something to be viewed negatively or as a flaw. I actually think in a way it’s very difficult to be happy in your own company and not to need others to achieve happiness. Being truly alone is not something a lot of people can tolerate and are ok with.

Sometimes it feels like it’s not normal to dislike being around others and to find social situations taxing. Sometimes I will just have had enough and need to be alone and that’s ok.

Whether you’re an introvert or a social butterfly I think it’s important to know yourself and your limits. You should do what is best for your health, not what is expected.

We only get one life and there is always one person who we will spend it with, ourselves. Once you accept yourself as you are and make life work for you the more at peace you will be.

Life is too short to be anything but selfish. We should all make our own kind of “normal”.

Be unashamedly you in all your complexities and eccentricities.


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Vegan Babe Life & Being An Introvert

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(12) Comments

  1. Alys says:

    Such an honest post, I find it reassuring reading posts like this. Introversion has so many positives! xx
    Alys
    https://alysjournals.com

    1. Siobhan Llinos Gale says:

      Thank you. 🥰xx

  2. Sanna Vegancruiser says:

    It’s ok to be an introvert, we should all accept ourselves as we are.. Comparison is hell, anways. I often find it amusing that us bloggers commonly out ourselves as introverts but it does kind of make sense to be more comfortable in putting words out there and connecting on social media rather than one-on-one. Finding our tribe in less traditional ways… while still being able to stay in with our fluffs and be comfortable. Or maybe that is just me. I’m looking fwd to being able to just chill in my jammies this NYE and I am not ashamed. Do look after yourself, you’ve acknowledged your PTSD and help is out there… should you choose to want it.

    1. Siobhan Llinos Gale says:

      Love this comment! Thank you Sanna. Oh absolutely I shall be chilling out this evening as well and tomorrow is my birthday ha!

  3. A-mistletoe🤶 (@acurvyvegan) says:

    So proud of you for writing this my darling! I can totally understand your point and where you’re coming from!

    Love, Amie ❤
    The Curvaceous Vegan

    1. Siobhan Llinos Gale says:

      Aww thank you. I never know how people feel about these kinds of posts.. I write them for myself really. But I hope they’ve helped someone and that people like them anyway 😊💖xx

  4. nowheretobeproject says:

    I adore this post. I am certain that it took great courage to write. I am also an introvert and didn’t really realize it until I was well into adulthood. I can relate to the feeling of being perfectly fine alone! Thanks for sharing!😍❤️✌🏻
    Dana
    NowhereToBeProject.com

    1. Siobhan Llinos Gale says:

      Thank you! I always want more feedback on posts like this and I never get it. Which is frustrating.. I like writing them and write them for myself but it would be nice to know people actually like reading them too.
      There’s so much I wanted to say but I find it hard to put a lot of things into words. It probably came across as me being super confused as that’s how I felt at the time. I love being alone. I’m spending Christmas and my birthday at home alone this year and lots of people would think that’s sad..

      1. nowheretobeproject says:

        I think it sounds dreamy!😍❤️✌🏻

        1. Siobhan Llinos Gale says:

          I do too! In a way.. Would be nice however if my only family cared and gave me any consideration on Christmas through. Me just being silly and sentimental I guess..

          1. nowheretobeproject says:

            Sometimes it is better to stay away from toxicity…even when it is from those who are supposed to care the most😑

          2. Siobhan Llinos Gale says:

            Yeah I totally agree. I stay away always

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